2011

Last day of 2010, December 31st...
Went out to have dinner with my fren..
Having a nice chat at a great atmosphere...
SO SWEET
Greeted by Mr/Mrs Cockroach at home...
NOT COOL

First day of 2011, January 1st...
Lazying around at home...
Enjoying the last two days of the remaining holiday..
Wishing the whole world clock stop functioning so that no class on Monday....
Maybe sudden public holiday on Monday?
Getting even more lazy.... (Sweet... ^^Y)
I like doing nothing like this!

Life is just great when holiday mood kicks in...
When the time come to start the engine, it needs time...
Seems like the engine is old and need some service.....
But when time come to move, it will still function .. (i guess)

Memorable day

Should be a sunny day
But why is it a bit blue..?

Shooting stars

Hoping for the lucky star,
To make an impossible wish,
Just one tiny simple wish,
But it's so far away from me,
Too high up for my reach....

new sem new hope

New semester... suppose with a new hope? but this sem i think i should not hope too much and just went through my life.. I want a peaceful one without much problem... just want to enjoy my uni life.. sudenly feel very tired of all the struggle....

reality.

Double face human... wats tat? it mean u face ur life with all sort of attitude.. Gud things? no idea... suppose we should face everyone with sincerity but in this society how many of us really cn do that? i used to be proud that i can do that but now i decided its time to change. LIFE is... about pretending, NO? disagree? haha... surely some will said no but ask yourself how many times have you feel disagree with someone but you still have to accept it because its your boss, teacher or someone else and you don't want to add more trouble to your pocket? Uni life.. society life... teach me a lot of lesson. I am no longer that naive... I.. grow up... But still not yet fast enough to catch up with life.. i am still doing my homework everyday.. and day by day i start to think i am becoming more and more fake. I somehow lost myself in tis life but i preserve the real me with those i value. Because without them i will really lost the real me.. with them its just so right to be yourself.. because they understand and accept just how you are.. But others may not.. This is life. Nobody will be loved by everyone. There will surely somebody who cnt accept juz the way you are. That is when the faking started because it is just necessary to survive.. but dun ever ever lost yourself in the process.... possible? if the world is not that complicated how it will be?

都是一样的。。不知道还是爱强出头。。真搞笑

Omg... Why all of them is like that i wonder... you don't know what to do and asked for people opinion but you don't want to accept... Then why asked in the first place? I really cannot stand it... If you think you are much more superior then me, then do not waste your time asking because it will only make people frustrated and angry. It is nothing wrong with you so sure with ur own idea and opinion but it just not right to ask for peoples opinion just to argue and protect your own. -.-' When they have no idea what to do they still insist of doing something which is FRUITLESS and WASTING MY TIME. Huh... I know maybe you feel bored because nothing to do but that is not the proper way of LOOKING for something to do people... When you voice out 'people' said because she had no idea wat else to do or we can do this this this first then just this this this... WHICH equal to a waste of time in the end as you still need to redo the thing the next time.. Then after you did something 'people' will just take away your effort and treat it like its their own.. wow!~ Good man... When you offer to help people will reject it but when people realise that they cant finish it or they are lazy then they will ask u to do it. In the first place just divide it lar for goodness sake. I will not going to go and boast it is my hard work ok? humm... good at acting...

what will i gain by the end of intern?

For now.. there is two things that i am sure.. one is, i will have a pair of muscular legs!~ haha.. everyday i will walk back home from highway..!~ better than waiting for bus.. really need to thanx my colleague for willing to drive me there on his way back.. As for another thing will be gaining extra weight!! All the colleague is really very nice that they keep asking people to eat.. haha... i have been eating my breakfast, then brunch then lunch then tea time and dinner... wow....

First Day of My Intern..

First day of intern... I went to my working place at 6am in the morning by using bus then switch to komuter.. After around an hour plus i finally arrived at the location. HOWEVER, when i was waiting for the Director, they told me... I went to the wrong place. They asked me to catch another van to go to the place where i am suppose to go.. -.-' OMG. I went there in a good condition but i came back with my 10 toes wrapped in plastersss because of blistersssss.. I missed the van to go back to the Komuter station. Finally when i arrived at komuter station, the komuter is broken down.. finally when i reach the bus station, i waited for another one hour plussss for the bus... I went to work at 6am, finished work around 5.30pm BUT i arrive home at 10pm??!! can anyone imagine that? omg.. i omos cried because of frustration!~~

Sorry...

Haha.. it seems like everyone learned a lesson. But some tend to blame it on others. When u said that if you did noting wrong then congratulation, you can be put on the altar, what is the different of saying you did nothing wrong? haha... I find it funny because you never find your own mistake but you expect others to do that? This is so ridiculous... When everyone think that you are wrong.. what can you do? Decide to follow through it or give up in the middle? haha

I.N.D.I.V.I.D.U.A.L vs G.R.O.U.P

Group is so much easier to write compare to individual.. Because as individual u have a lot of things that you have to do and carry out yourself. But when you are in a group... a lot of things can be done together. BUT... individual has no thorns as individual will not hurt themselves. But GROUP will... when in a group.. you are letting yourself to be vulnerable.. I have learned another valuable lesson today. Thanx to the group. :)

Dance With My Father

Back when i was a child before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around till i fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And i knew for sure i was loved
If i could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever and
How I do love, love, love
TO dance with my father again
When i and my mother would disagree
To get my way, i would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when i was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If i could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
Cause I do love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I do hear my mother cried for him
And i hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I know i am praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she is dying
To dance with my father again
Every night i fall asleep and this is all i ever dream
Every night i fall asleep and this is all i ever dream....

(Luther Vandross)
Sang by Joseph McElderry at x-factor

Totally different feelings when Joseph sang it. But fell so touched for the first time i heard this song.. I can't really catch the lyric when Joseph sang it but can feel the sadness in it. Then when hear Luther Vandross edition, understood the lyric and feel even more into the songs... It... it's just so right at this moment. The feeling.... not only to treasure people around you... Every minute is a gift... to spend without regrets...

Exam Week...

Huh.. exam week.. too many things too study with too little time.. terrible... Hope can have enough time to cover everything.. But i feel so lazy to study.. Feel sleepy all the time.. hahaha.. n feel like playing only..

So little and insignificant

I just realise i am so small and insignificant. I wonder sometimes why i bother so much? I guess its because i do care. But now i know i should not bother to care so much. I feel i am stupid suddenly.. Well i must be.. There is no better explanation for what happened.

当你的关心变成负担。。

When your concern turn into a type of burden for your friend this is when you are almost losing this friend. This actually show that your companion is no longer needed nor appreciated by them anymore and might cause them to be even more unhappy. Suddenly the heart turn frozen. Everything seems meaningless... This is life.. Everything that no matter how much it matter to you it will not stay that way forever.. One day.. it will turn back into an empty phase.

4.0 means anything?

For me it means a lot when you are about to enter the working force... People can only judge your ability by using ur cgpa... BUT? How good or should i say how REAL is tat 4.0? Well... not everyone deserve it anyway.... People can just get it by copying answers... I just know that is the meaning of 4.0 now.. It does not prove anything anymore... It is just how GOOD your are at looking for small source to get that pointer... haha... really crap... But still people tend to judge you by this result anyway... just they never know how is the process of getting it..

High Above?

Some people tend to think that they are better than others.. I wonder why? Haha.. Funny.. i know a few 'FRENS' like this.. they only will SUDDENLY realize your present when they need your help.. Suddenly their attitude turn real nice too!~^^ WOW.. they will say PLS... Unbelievable? Haha... well there is really this type of people... I think maybe because i am not their course mate so they can just treat me like nobody maybe? Well, i don't give a damn what they think actually because i definitely don't need their help. Instead somehow i really feel funny and pity them.. They are the one that need my help but that's is their ways to treat people although they need peoples help? You might succeed in Uni circle but do you think when you carry this sort of attitude to the outside world people will care bout u? Haha... well.. lets just see how successful they can be.. Maybe they will be real successful because they are really good at 'praising' others.. Or should i said USING others... hahaha.. say cheese for them... that is their ways to become someone which i definitely will not choose to go..

Chap Goh Mei

Last day of CNY... Just like that fifteen days passed... Gonna miss the cny spirit... I enjoy.. The Holidays.. haha.. Definitely the friends and family company as well... Seldom got the chance to see them and gather together nowadays. Tats y.. well.. my last day of CNY passed with celebration at KFC.. hahaha.. with my housemate.. something new... the feelings is different... i still miss the holiday.. zzz... everyday also lazy to go for class... huh

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!~

Happy Chinese New Year everyone... :) A very happy celebration indeed. But this year seems like a bit... ermm... not that merry? Maybe because a lot of friends is not around.. But still the feelings is there and i enjoy this year chinese new year a lot... Hope everyone the same as well.. :) soon will have to go back to Uni again.. Haiz.. exam, assignment, exam, report, social problem... is all the 'routine' that need to be tackle again..

SARAWAK.

Currently blogging in my hometown.. I am really proud to say that i come from East Malaysia! Lately a friend of mine asked me whether Sarawak people still stay in long house in a JOKING way which i personally kind of piss off. For goodness sake.. I wonder why people can be so ignorant. Yes, no doubt West Malaysia KL area is really develop. BUT EAST MALAYSIA IS DEFINITELY NOT THAT UNDER DEVELOP AS WELL. What can i say? Can't really blame them as they never came here before. What i can say is Long house is one of the tourism attraction but that does not mean everyone is living in a long house. We do have tall building that use LIFT ad escalator as well... @@ even postcard can see that as well... so please don't ask some question that will only make yourself as well as me look like an idiot ok?

A little note..

A acquaintance of mine wrote this the other day..
" there is always sun after the rain"
I answered by saying that " My life is always raining recently"
I personally enjoy rainy seasons.. But when your life is always raining, some how you will lose your faith in life.. Cheer up i said to myself because there is always the rainbow after the rain. Maybe i will not see the sun but definitely the weather is better after a rain..

I am so busy catching up with my life this semester.. With the internship due date coming closer and closer.. I am definitely very nervous... My friends found their internship place most of them... I am still struggling here... Wish me luck... That's the only things i can tell myself.

A New Year come...

New year, new resolution, new hope?
Certainly hope so! To those who have lost their faith, catch up with it just one more time! Only this time please try harder than last time!
Only when you believe then it will come true.
I don't know since when i lost my faith and since when i started to grab hold on that believe...

Have you enjoyed your year 2009?
For those who had, congratez because its not easy to live our life to the fullest, there is always some regrets and disappointment in it but nevertheless the real failure is when you admit you fail forever. So stand up and be stronger from every fall that come upon you.
For those who think they dud not enjoy it or not happy with it, well.. here is your new chance! Why don't you grab it? Don't make yourself disappointed again.. Peoples can make you life worse but only you can make your life better if you want it so much for it to be true!